from th past1month, i have been keepin a secret from my parents.
th guiltness, th 心虚 is makin me uncomfortable.
sometimes i really have th urge to tell my mama th truth.
bt whenever i open my mouth, no word came out.
i dunno how to begin...
i hope this is not an excuse.
maybe this is juz a sign of my 胆子小，
or sign of not 冲动。
i thought a lot.
i afraid they will object to it.
i afraid i would lose him.
i afraid they dun hav trust in me.
in my parents' eyes, i'm those silly girl who is easily cheated by others.
they might afraid i cant control and affect my studies.
i tink of those possible concern they might tink of.
i feel like lettin them noe after i get my o lvl result.
now i really dunno wad to do.
everytime he sent me home, sometime i feel like 鬼鬼催催。
i dunno y... i dint do any bad thing, y would i hav this feelin?
i'm already 16, would they agree to it?
or they wan me to focus on study?
bt i can manage both of them well .
last year 2nd semester i was in relationship too, and i can still achieve th 3rd position.
although nex year jc life is much more tirin, stress, from all th rumor i heard of, i still believe i can manage it.
issit really 不见棺材不掉泪？hahas xD
i hav confidence in myself.
this is me, my feelin, my management, my action,
i noe wad i'm doin, so wif all this,
they most probably would agree.
纸是包不住火的。
当你撒一个谎，你就会想更多来掩盖第一个谎。
i hope nex time i am brave enough can 光明正大，老老实实 tell them i'm going out datin wif him.
sometimes when i look into their eyes, i really dunno how to say it.
haiz...
no wonder my hair is turin white.
dere would be a way out.
SIMIN FIGHTING!
