times really passed not even in a blink of eyes.
issit bcoz life in sg is too rush ?
we cant really have a good look at th surrounding, th environment, th flowers th building etc.
it was even busier after o lvl.
i've going out everyday.
firstly, this year is an important year for me.
as it decide whether part of my future through education.
so no matter wad, i had to study very hard for my o lvl.
sometimes, it was really stress.
but i felt tat o lvl was quite 大牌。
it made me nervous, looking forward and put in my all for it.
if th result doesn't turn out well, i would definitely be super duper disappointed and upset and i cant even imagine how hurt it would be except crying.
our teachers kept on telling us to keep on going, as we can enjoy all we want after tat few months of meaningless life/ suffering.
well, to me, i really summarize all i learnt and spend all my times on it.
sometimes, i even felt tat i'm turning more knowledgeable.
during o lvl exam, my parents ols support me by my side.
my mama specially took many leaves during that exam period and cooked lunch and dinner for me.
she knew tat my stomach is very sensitive.
once i ate something wrong, it would bring me down for many days.
my papa ols bought 鸡精 for me.
without them, i'm not sure if i'm able to keep on fighting.
sometimes huiting laogong ols called to concern me and ols planned for her nex year o lvl.
hahas xD
secondly, after o lvl, i found a job.
although i cant work wif xuan xuan, i'm much fortunate as compare to her i tink.
as my manager and most of th colleague patched wif me.
even when th old lady annoyed me every time i went to work, i ols have the jiejie supports.
they are nice ppl.
thus, i earned a lot during this holiday.
i even teach tuition during weekend.
so everyday, i hav cash income.
every month, i would have bank income.
in other word, i'm able to earn pocket money through tutoring and earn furture money through breadtalk.
well, wad a nice plan~
i dunnid to take my parents $ during holiday.
independence.
however, after i enter jc, i decide to teach tuition onli.
thirdly, i went through a failed relationship.
although it is an unhappiness, this look like wad happen in drama.
hahas xD
erm... but th ending a bit different.
i truly felt hurt.
as we broke up after i removed th shield.
so since tat incident, i begin to be more careful and put on a thicker shield.
well, at least i have a taste of it.
不经一事，不长一智。
i'm able to focus on o lvl and study hard for it.
dream is onli i have in my mind and i onli wan to chiong to it.
however, sometimes thing happen too sudden and is out of control.
forth, i find my happiness.
and tat's weilun biibii.
well, i dint expect myself and not even in my plan to be in a relationship in this year.
b4 my o lvl end, i planned to work everyday as i wan to make myself busy,
so tat i cant tink of other thing.
but somehow when fate want to come, i cant stop it.
i am attracted to him like a magnet.
it happened too randomly and suddenly.
sometimes,i still cant understand or see why we are tgt.
hahas xD is this wad we called fate?
no matter wad, for now, i onli wan to be wif him forever.
even my mama noe about this.
well, i really serious this time round i tink.
although we always quarreled, it brought us closer and understand each other better.
am i too optimistic? hahas xD
i dun wan to separate wif him.
nex year, i will be having my A lvl MT, he will be focusin on lvl, so we hav different focus.
but we can still meet up to study tgt, and see each other every week.
i once read a msg tat said 子要你心里有他，他心里有你，就算没有时时刻刻在一起，感情也不会淡。
i even felt tat as we cant see each other very often, we will cherish each other more.
wad a optimistic thinkin ~ hahas xD
but it sound sensible.
我真是幸福哦！
Fifth, i slowly move towards part of my dream.
my hobby is piano.
for th past few years, i've been cravin to learn piano and continue my piano grade.
due to th piano fee, i'm not able to afford th lesson.
but for th hard life i've went through since sec2, i saved enough $ for piano lesson.
i've been teachin tuition and workin at bookshop since sec2.
it might be tiring, but dere a goal for me, so it's all worth it.
in july, i started to take on piano lesson every thu.
i finally stepped into part of my goal.
my feeling for it is... since i've started, i must hang on and live on and succeed.
my life is filled wif more colours.
Sixth, i found my true frenz!
and tat GOH HUITING!
she accompanied me when i'm depressed, happy and all my troublesome thing.
and we are quite FATED!
since this year, we've lot of coincidence incident happen.
chalet is th one tat left me wif deep impression.
well, telepathy .
i dunno wad to say.
our meetin are quite random, but we actually become true frenz till now.
we noe each other from tuition, whereby i'm actually her tutor.
hahas xD
soon after, she join th tuition centre too.
and we become colleague.
den we ate dinner tgt.
mostlyat cwp yoshinoya.
it's a pity tat its close down now.
but nvm, it wun affect us.
coz we can change our location to aijisen, it is onli a bit more expensive. ;x
whenever i hav secret, she would b th 1st to noe, if she not in china.
hahas xD
and i wun keep my secret to her, otherwise who will consult me? ~ hahas xD
without her, i might be pessimistic right now.
knowing huiting is th most rightful thing i made for this 16years and i nvr regret.
wif a goal, wif my caring frenz and family,
my life is turning more and more meaningful.
although i dunno who would i meet nex year, wad would happen to me, how stressful jc is for me, i would keep on fighting.
if u tink u can, u can.
i learn to be not looking forward to anything and juz wait for it to happen.
coz everytime when i look forward to something, it would end up to disappointment.
this is wad we always said 希望越大，失望越大。
this year has end, i experience new thing and meaningful.
although i dint really have a clique, but i have 知音 and love one.
hahas xD
i'm fortunate and will cherish them all.
:D
hope tat everything went well for nex year.
SIMIN FIGHTING!
